How are we MID WAY through OCTOBER already?! The months and the days are passing WAY TOO FAST in my opinion! Though I suppose this time of year does pass a bit quicker than the rest… but still, I’m not done enjoying Fall and Halloween yet! I guess that’s my fault for wanting to start the Christmas celebrations on November 1st instead of on Thanksgiving like my family usually does…
The start of Fall and the start of a string of holiday seasons — the best and most stressful time of the year \o/
My goals list for September failed, as always.
My anxiety has been nagging at me for weeks; ever since I got my stuff finally delivered to me from the move in July. The move, of which I had filed a claim form and they have not responded to in nearly 30 days. What good are moving companies? All they do is screw people over during a very stressful time. And they expect to be treated with respect for over charging and for pulling fuck shit? Lame. Though I’m not sure exactly what this experience has to do with triggering my anxiety for months besides that they lost a bunch of my shit.
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother doing these goal lists if I barely ever complete any of them.
⇢ Read at least 4 books for the October challenge
⇢ Decide/prep which NaNoWriMo project to work on
⇢ Post a weekly vlog for Vlogtober
⇢ Post one additional video a week in the spirit of Fall
⇢ Incorporate Blogtober on both hazearella and stuckinthislife
⇢ Bookstagram fav past October reads
⇢ Make bath bombs
⇢ Tidy makeup area in room
⇢ Tidy closet
⇢ Start purging old/unwanted makeup and clothes
⇢ Try 1 new Ramen place
⇢ Try 1 new Boba flavor
⇢ Tidy TV stand in prep for Christmas
⇢ Tidy living room
I want to post more YouTube videos, I want my room to reflect the perfect vlogger look, I want to do all the things I use to be so passionate about like photography, social media, graphic design and alla that other stuff.
Lately I’ve noticed I’ve been more negative and frustrated and angry and all that does is invite more of those negative vibes into my mind and my life.
I want my room and my apartment to be less cluttered and more zen and I want all of this stuff sorted and put away and a home found for them before November! I want my apartment and room to be ready for Christmas and I want to enjoy as much of it as I can. Because I finally can.
I want to be up to date on my Yelp and Amazon reviews and I want to post more on my food blog.
I’m also planning on changing all my instagram feeds to reflect more of me and my life. I love taking product shots and stuff but I also always wished my photos had more of me in them and not just in terms of selfies but me in the places or me trying the food, you know?
I hate being discouraged and I hate letting myself down, but it seems like lately that’s all I’ve been doing and that needs to change. And if I don’t change it then that change will never happen.
So it’s up to me.
I missed last weeks recap and my phone decided to force update and I somehow messed up the pictures on my phone and when I tried to fix it iCloud somehow managed to delete December, all of August, all of September and bits and pieces of other months. So yeah, all my photos are just gone. They’re backed up on my laptop and my Dropbox but as far as looking up the order on my phone, yeah that’s not happening. Which annoys me.
I wish there was a way to restore JUST the photos you took on THAT PHONE. Cause when it tried to “revert” back, I somehow went from 1 GiG of space to 18 GiGs (which has NEVER happened, I’m awful at having space on my phone) and it still has some photos from 2013 restored. Like wtf iCloud?!
The months are getting colder, which is exciting!
And the weather has been perfect here in Texas. I’ve missed real Fall’s!
Goodbye August, GOODBYE!
2U by David Guetta (ft. Justin Bieber) has been on repeat like all week. I don’t get how it could be BY someone but obviously The Beibz is the only one speaking on this track lol. That part always confused me! I get that it might be David’s beat but Justin’s on it but still, I’m sure you know what I mean lol.
How is it damn near the end of the month — well actually it IS the end of the month — already?!
That leaves what… the holidays left? Holy crap this year has flown RIGHT ON BY!
These weeks are passing by faaaaast.
I feel like my anxiety has taken over a little bit and I haven’t had much sleep lately. It’s been driving me crazy. I’ve always hate the dark and the night and I’ve tried to get myself in a mindset where it won’t bother me as much but my anxiety has a way of spinning things way out of control too. That’s what I remember most looking back at this week was the lack of sleep I’ve been experiencing. Sigh.