I was suppose to spend Valentines Day weekend in Dallas with my boyfriend but I ended up missing my flight because I booked it on the wrong day. Yeah. That’s never happened before. It’s never happened that I didn’t check and double check either. The last few weeks have just been so stress filled that I haven’t been paying attention. I was pretty crushed because Valentines Day was pretty much ruined thanks to me. So I was feeling pretty disappointed at myself and down.
So I did a little bit of shopping, even though it didn’t really make me feel better. Penny ended up getting me even more stuff for Valentines Day. And surprisingly he managed to get my gift to me the day before Valentines Day!
My mom sent me a bunch of Lavender things to help me relax and ease my anxiety. I finished reading Scarlet by Marissa Meyer finally and loved it! I finished Cinder last year and it took me forever to get back into reading. I’m currently working on Cress now and I’m not enjoying it as much but it just started. I also got my Feb Graze box and I’m most excited about these two snacks I got!
When you realize your week was much more full of product shots than what your week was actually… about.
I started transitioning from Winter to Spring; I don’t know why Kurmoi felt the need to push Kerropi over but she’s rude af. I’m loving the Bath & Body Works Lemon Zest energy aromatherapy candle. Wish I had grabbed more than 2 but I’m sure it’ll come back for the next semi annual sale (and I’ll be there to grab it again)!
I also started reading (and finished) The Cozy Life. I’m trying to include more Hygge into my lifestyle.
I filmed an unboxing video and actually posted it. I unboxed my Sanrio Small Crate that Bubba got me for Christmas, you can see the video here.
I used my new IT Cosmetics CC cream and I love it! It feels so good on the skin! I also used my Too Faced Peach Palette for the first time and I totally dig it. I wish I was more creative with my looks but it’s a work in progress.
I headed to Target to see if they had any more Valentines Day stuff — which they did — but I didn’t really end up picking anything up. I did get a drink from Starbucks which OMG I miss those on a daily basis (no pic cause I drank it too fast). I did spot some new candles from Target and I picked up one of the Pineapple Cake ones which smelled amazing on cold sniff but it doesn’t have a good scent throw sadly… and wasn’t really worth the $10 if you ask me. Also headed to VS to pick up more panties cause I’m in love with the way the PINK panties feel! Also grabbed some more stuff from their semi annual sale too like the hand cream and lip products. The rest of the stuff was my first round there earlier this month.
I guess it’s no secret that tomorrow’s Valentines Day. Growing up, I wen through phases with Valentines Day. I was bitter for never getting those secret Valentines Day packs they pass out in middle school. I think I sent one to myself once, cause I wanted the candy. It wasn’t until high school (and still boyfriend-less) that I didn’t mind it so much, I had friends that loved me. They gave me hugs all day long and told me I looked beautiful that day. Who needed a temporary boyfriend when you had friends that would be there forever? So thank you, to those friends (one who is still my best) that made me realize that love from your friends are worth so much more than a significant other.
I may or may not also use the day as an excuse to spoil myself.
Now that I’m older and married (and I finally have a Valentine on Valentines Day!), it’s still not a big deal. I really didn’t miss out on much. But sometimes I can’t help but be a little jealous. My husband has never given me roses, ever. And I sort of feel like my chance to be wooed with roses and a romantic dinner is over. True, I was never really that girl who wanted that stuff, but sometimes it would be nice to just feel like someone you bust your ass for everyday appreciates you. I’m tempted to send myself roses, but I think that would just make me feel even lonelier.
While I try not to make a big deal on Valentines Day, I can’t help but feel like the spirit of my favorite holiday is sucked out this year (man this is turning into a really depressing entry fast). I hinted to my husband somewhere I wanted to go and that we should go before Valentines Day since we start school on Valentines Day and despite the multiple hints, he didn’t set reservations. Mostly because he was too busy playing his online game with his new friends. So I guess right now, I’m feeling replaced and taken for granted a little. I don’t expect him to make my favorite holiday special, I think that’s a little unfair, it’s not his job. Even if he is my husband. It’s my favorite holiday because I spend the day with myself, reminding myself how awesome I am. But that little part of me feels like my husband should too.
Wow, talk about not making sense, right?
I sort of wish I was still in high school, boyfriend-less and looking forward to getting hugs and compliments from my best tomorrow instead of him being half way across the country.
I also don’t know why sometimes in the WP editor the font is either Georgia (which I prefer) or Ariel.
So welcome, all, to my yet again new blog. I’m starting to think I’m incapable of being one of those people who can reference their blog posts from like way back in the day. I don’t know what it is, I just like starting fresh, I guess. Or I might just be really picky about my user name. Who knows.
There’s a lot of in between going on right now, I guess. Playing a few waiting games. School at UoP is starting up again next week and I can’t really say I’m excited. Cause I’m not. I’m a little upset because our new financial person failed to mention that our previous class was going to cost an extra $600. And that put a HUGE dent in my grant which put a HUGE dent into how much I have left for my next classes (annnd as extra cash, just to be honest). So yeah, I got about $2000 less than what I was expecting back. Which blows because we have some built up fee’s to pay back.
In a way, this is also my fault. My fault for not taking care of the built up fee’s long ago. For not having a source of income since moving back. For not saving enough money while I was away and just a million other reasons. But of course, no one likes to think something is their own fault and I can’t say I’m not the same. Even though I know, deep down inside, it’s kinda sorta really completely my fault.